Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Thankful for my Life Train.

I am not originally from the US. I was born and raised in Bolivia.
This year is the first year that I am having family and friends over in my home to Celebrate Thanks giving. We do not celebrate Thanksgiving back in Bolivia but, I want to take a moment to say thank you to everyone that has stepped up and down from my life train.
That’s how I see life, a train where lots of people will travel with you and at some point in your life some will get off and some will ride up. Some of them will stay with you until the end and that is great!
What I love about this train is that each person that comes and goes teaches you something very important and that is how you make yourself better.
We all have those who came in and at the end of our trip with them you feel like they hurt you and is not fair for you and all these negative thoughts and feelings come to you.
Believe me! I know the feelings. There is also those who were so close to you and one day when you try to reach out they are just not there anymore. They just decided that they needed distance from you. Is all good people! Give them space even if you really don’t know what happen or start questioning yourself if you did or said something that caused all that. Is not you and is not them. It life and things happen for a reason. Just let it go! Like with everyone that we love, you need to let them go if you really love them.
Life is not fair or unfair. Life is what you make if it. You make your own happiness. Life is short! And we need to live this to the fullest. Enjoy every minute you have with all the people in your life as you never know if it will be the last time you see them.
This year for Thanksgiving I want to give thanks to God. He gave me the family and friends I have today. He is the one who puts people on my path in life. To all those friends who got off my train for whatever reason and we never spoke again. For those who got off but we can still get in touch after a long while and see that nothing in our friendship has changed.
I want to thank those ex boyfriends who I felt broke my heart but in reality gave me the chance to grow as a person and taught me right from wrong. I want to thank all my family for being so close with each other and for always be there for each other no matter what.
For all my mistakes, thank you! Because if it wasn’t for those, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. The mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend. I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to fall down and get up again to try and succeed.
To my husband, who is always there for me, in good and in bad. We have ups and downs but we always stick with each other. Thank you for being the person who always find the way to make me smile and laugh.
And last but not least, to my babies. They make my life happy and teach me how to be a mom. They teach me patience and make me stronger. They make me want to be a better person for them. I love them with all my heart.
This Thanksgiving, leave regrets and anger outside your door. Let happiness and positive thoughts in and remember; You make the life you want. What are you thankful for?
Happy Thanksgiving to you all. Stay safe. Be good to yourself and to others.
Until the next time 😉

Friday, October 26, 2018

Crying a river!!

I know it has been a long time since my first post here. I was dealing with my pregnancy, work and my almost 2 year old princess.
We just recently had a newborn and we are in heaven with both our kids. And now I am dealing with hormones all over the place which makes me even more emotional. I feel guilty because my princess feels like I replaced her and I don’t want her to feel this way. She wants all my attention and sometimes I cannot give it to her because I need to take care of her little brother. But she doesn’t understand this yet.
I have been crying every single day since I last gave birth. Literally I can probably be named after a river because of so many tears. So how is it that moms all over the world deal with these crazy hormones? Is this a sign of depression beginnings? When does this go away?
I remember with my first baby, I would cry but it didn’t last too long... what is this????
I wish I could divide myself I two and be able to be with both babies at the same time. Thank goodness for both grandmas staying at home with us and helping me with her. But still feel guilty. I want to be that super mom that can do everything and anything with no matter how many kids.
How did moms in the past do it? Staying at home moms, in the past and probably some now, had to deal with all sort of things. From cleaning the house, having meals ready and taking care of the kiddos.
Why is it then that if we are the “stronger sex” which in most cases we are, we cannot do other things besides having a full time job, come home, make a quick dinner (not that healthy or with much effort put into it) have 10 minutes with the kids, put them to bed and good night! Next day same routine. This is ridiculous!!!!
I am trying to figure out how can I challenge myself today about feeling this way and show myself that I can do anything? Any advice and words of encouragement are so welcome.
Hopefully I will have another post next week or by this weekend. God bless.

Sunday, July 29, 2018

My home gives me a headache!

I don’t like my house!

I am grateful for having a roof over our heads and having a place to sleep and spend time with my family. But, the reason I say don’t like it is because we bought it in a rush. We didn’t think all the way. We were living in a small apartment 2 years ago and it was not enough. We have 3 dogs, I was pregnant with my first child and we just wanted to get out.

We were already in the looks for a house. We were going to become first time homeowners. I love the idea but, I wanted it right away. So we did it! We bought a 3 bedroom, 2 and 1/2 bathrooms house. It looked perfect! But time passed my daughter is growing up so beautifully and is so smart and then I realized it.... We needed a bigger house! Me and the hubby started having buyer’s regret. Have you ever heard of this term? Have you ever felt that way? (Sigh)

What do you do in this situation? Do you just pack up your stuff and sell your house? Do you put it in the market right away? How much is this going to cost us? With another baby on the way is kind of difficult to just plan and move.

How are we going to make this work? We have so many plans for our family, lives, home. Where to start? I always like to help people and give them some advice. I love talking to my husband and be the one that is always positive. I love calming him down. It is easier to say it but hard to do. I know we have to do it step by step and prioritize.

I wish I had a magic wand so i could make things easier! (yes I am a Harry Potter fan...don't judge me 😀) But is true! I would make everything negative and useless disappeared from our lives once and for all. I really believe that if you are negative and upset all the time, you will not solve any of your problems. I know we need to vent so let's vent! But let's not keep being upset all day and let this ruin  our days and time spent  with our love ones.

So this is what I propose myself..... I will start little by little. One room at a time. It does not matter how long it takes me I will make this house work until we can decide to move again. I will make it work for my sweet daughter. If i have to make my living room her play room, so be it! We can play there and clean it up after. She will grow up in a happy home and learn that not everything in life is easy but you have to make the best of it.

I will make it work for my husband. In fact we, together, will make it work for us. Supporting each other in everything. growing together and having our happy small place in the meantime. We will get rid of everything that we don't need or haven't used in a long time. Enough is enough and I want him and my kids to be happy and not to worry about details.

How do you make it work? I would love to hear your comments and advice.

This is my first time writing so thank you for following and reading.

God bless.